wow. i really feel low.
like there dirt, then theres dirty soil, then there's the fungus the sil feeds off of , and then there's bacteria, and then there's me.

it's funny how the ones you think you love and respect the most
are the first ones to let you down.
and when they hit you down, you fall hard.
but it's like you falling, down into this deep hole of nothing,
and then BAM your face hits the cement.
and it hurts.

i hope i don't do that to others.
but i'm sure i have and i will
even if i don't mean it.
but sometimes i think people know how it will be taken and they say/do it anyway.
why would you do that?

i wish i could disapear.

the snow is lovely.

i am in awe.

the coments on the last post were amazing.
truly i cannot wait until the holidays come.

i miss trenton.
i miss what it use to be.
where doors were unlocked.
when kids could walk around -aimlessly- but safely.
when neighbors acted like friends.
it could have been this awesome stars'hollowy place to live
but it has all changed.
it's now a toilet swirl of ranky shyte.

even though trenton now sucks, i miss it.
it's where everybody knows your name,
where everybody knows where you live,
where you have a place called home,
where you can find your friends,
where childhood and innocence are lost in time,
where you find comfort in familiarity,
where memories are at every street corner,
the place you could never have lived without.
the place that holds our lives.

i think i just need the holidays to come, and last forever,
smoothly without disturbance.
i also think i need to stop listening to this music.
it's just making me sad and lonely.

i love.

i love my papa.

oh godness.
how can people be so self centered.
take someone else's money and run for the hills.
to "gather your thoughts".
like wtf.
grow up.
get a job.
do something with your life.
and stop being a pathetic loser.
honeslty.

talking to shannon always makes me feel better.

ahh it's good to be back with blogger.
definately will be using this again.
simply for random thoughts and whatever is on my mind.
will take mrs. t's advice and start writing more frequently- about anything.
i will alot to remember years from now
and maybe it's time to take an interests in those "memories"
if that's even what you could call them.
cheerio.

enough with livejournal.
i don't know, it just seem that much less personal or something
on the livejournal.
i like it, but it's kind of annoying, such a hassle to get
in and just type an entry.
blogger is still the best.
i might copy this to lj, but not sure yet.

in other news, i am extremely worried
about everything- and i am
really pissed off.
why? you may ask, well because
i think i honeslty am starting to get fed
up with people and their stupidity.
and worried because the year is almost over and i don't
know what i am doing.
i just want the whole world to fuck off
and give me the $32 million lotto win
because money will make shit go away,
and yes, it will buy me happiness.